
Welcome To University!
Well, she’s officially off to college. I know, I’ve probably beaten this topic to death, but transitions are big. Never mind that I’ve been mentally preparing for this particular one since I found out Number 1 was going to enter the world. The range and intensity of the emotions still surprised me. They weren’t necessarily my emotions either which made it somewhat harder to handle.

L to R Number 1 ignores Number 2's antics
I’ve mentioned before that I’m not a helicopter mom. I don’t hover. I teach my kids the skills they need to manage themselves without me,then I let them do it, occasionally providing further instruction or correction as needed. I don’t hover in the classrooms, I don’t harrass the teachers or the school and I don’t meddle. I am, however, very present if and when I sense my children need me even if they don’t particularly ask with words. I also ask them what they need instead of assuming I automatically know.
Yesterday morning started off with all of us getting far too little sleep. I didn’t sleep due to the restless dread of attending a day of family activities with my first husband and his wife also attending. This still, even after a decade, feels awkward to me. Then, for my daughter, it was the long drawn out goodbye to the boyfriend who is not choosing to attend college right away. (Big mistake, I think, but then college isn’t for everyone. I mean some people are content never to challenge their thinking ever, but hey!)

I love buildings on university campuses
I set my alarm for 4 a.m. I woke number 1 at 5:15. At 5:30, I heard her crying. I went into her room and saw her standing there looking at her empty bookshelf, her empty closet and dresser crying. The feelings were just overwhelming to her. Excitement, apprehension, sadness, all wrapped up in one overwhelming bundle of emotions. I felt for her. Even though my own experience leaving home was so very different than this, I understood her feelings. She needed the few minutes to simply say good-bye to her childhood. This was how she needed to do it.
We hugged and a few minutes later we were on the road. Late, but on our way nonetheless.
The drive up was fairly uneventful, the discussion was interspersed with her trying to sleep. As we neared her College Town her excitement began to build. I will never forget that last drive up with her. I spent most of it reassurring her that she would be fine and that this was a wonderful adventure she was embarking upon. I truly believe it, too. It makes me sad that Iwasn’t a bit more deliberate and conscious when I was her age. But that’s how it goes I suppose. My goal was always to make sure that she had the skills and the self awareness to make her own decisions, not because she thought they’d please me or anyone else but because they were the right ones for her.
When we got to the campus, I was impressed with how well my daughter chose her university for herself.

Note that I'm way behind the crowd snapping pictures!
First off, the campus is fairly confined and compact, unlike the university I attended where the campus sprawled over miles of the town and many, many blocks. The larger campus of a state university might have overwhelmed my daughter who isn’t really into anonymity. For me, the large campus and even larger classes was the perfect place to hide while I tried to figure out what life was all about. I like the city for the same reason. I can camouflage and watch others without really even being noticed. I’m a part but I can also disappear if I want. This is not my daughter who is far more confident than I was and who wants to connect, participate, and isn’t afraid to be very involved in life and others’ lives. I am pleased with her confidence and with how comfortable she is in her own skin.
Second, the whole philosophy of the place fit my daughter, fairly socially aware and all. There’s an emphasis placed on the expectations for developing the whole person and pursuing excellence. You get the picture.
Of course, the whole day lent itself to such introspective ponderings. On the one hand, I feel very much as if all I’ve ever done in life is pour myself into kids and on the other hand I feel as if this is the greatest thing to have done with one’s life.

Uh oh. There's no room to walk now.
In between meetings, I helped her unpack her stuff in less than 45 minutes. This was possible because Ex #1 and The StepMom took the other kids and went to get McGrodo’s for everyone. Unpacking all that stuff and finding a place for it was no easy challenge.
It was especially gratifying when as the President of the University spoke, quoting from Middlemarch, about the value of education for the purposes of contributing to something greater than just oneself. After all the dinner time conversations where certain members of the then family poo pooed the entire college experience, I leaned over to my daughter and said, “Now do you get it? College isn’t just about the academics, honey. You are NEVER in a million years going to experience any of this just going to work every day right out of high school…if…indeed…you can get work.”
She just smiled and said, “Yeah, I so get it.”
Fun thing about all that…my other three kids got it too. Even my youngest is now talking about going to college. Nice!

Number 4 wanted to go swimming here!
Naysayers effectively quashed, check!
It’s all good!
Anyway, while emotional, it was more fun than dramatic and that’s never a bad thing. My daughter is happy with her choice and I am happy with that.
Enjoy the pics of our day together!

Not Number 1's housing arrangement. This was upperclass accommodations. Go Figure.

A campus tour to show us the trees?

Number 2 and attention seeking behaviors!

How Number 4 coped with the tour of the campus
From Left to Right: Number 4, 3 and 1 looking down from the story above in the new Tech Building.

Number 2, at it again. How'd she get in there???

She did end up in the water after all!!!

Heading back to the car to go home.
That’s it. Number 1 is officially collegiate! Only three more years till it is Number 2’s turn!